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Thus symptoms may differ for describing a nervous breakdown, but one can look for the following behaviors as possible symptoms that might precipitate a psychotic episode:

• Disinterest in work or family life
• Disinterest in social life or alienation from previously close friends and family
• Sleep disruption or much longer periods of sleep
• Significant changes in appetite, such as eating too little or too much
• Paranoid thoughts, such as the thought people are trying to harm you
• Thoughts of grandeur or invincibility
• Feelings of persistent anxiety or panic attacks
• Hearing voices
• Seeing people who are not there
• Thoughts of dying or wish to die
• Exhibiting strong or violent anger
• Having flashbacks to a prior traumatic event
• Increasing dependence on alcohol or drugs
• Inability to pursue a normal life, normal activities or normal relationships

Not like I have post traumatic stress disorder, but why am I like that now. I feel like I'm useless, I can contribute nothing to this society......... I don't wanna go for my english papers later.... I feel like even I've given up on myself literally. In the past, I realised I talk a lot, but now I am not even willing to open my mouth. Y'know there's always like a devil and an angel in you. Like when you wanna do something, the devil and angel will both talk and ask you to do this and that. Funny thing is that I don't listen to either of them but would just let everything go like y'know, the nonchalant attitude? Although I kinda saved a life yesterday but I just feel like ending mine right here right now.

webcam

who says i look hideous without makk up... quite the same la hehehe (points below) or maybe because my eyes are too small so eyeliner doesn't help at all hahahah.



My dog's pretty huge right hahah. I'm using my brother's computer now, quite amazed at how it works. I can just talk to the computer what I wanna type instead of typing! Hehe so cool. I need a webcam as well :<>

Hon / 혼

First, pause the video at the left hand side before you play this!

New drama series!!! 10 episodes, damn nice. I'm watching it now! For the sake of watching Geon Il... heheheheh :>

Photoshop does wonder

Bb damn cute!! I can play with her the whole day man she never fails to make me happy :> No wonder they say dogs are humans' best friend(s)! Some old pictures here..... My face hardcore edited! Was thinking how I'd look like with sharp nose slightly bigger eyes thinner face and longer chin. Hehe like a lot better right..... My mom say if she win toto she'll let me go for plastic surgery hahaha I wish!

Oh yes btw I love my new shirt here!(the one above in glittery grey but pardon my fat arms heh) Heheheheeh sorry I think they're edited quite nicely(HAHA) so yeah post a few more. I don't usually cam whore, unless I'm in a good mood! (for the fact that I've decided to retake o's... feel really relieved!)


Lastly, me without any editing except for contrast. HA sorry if I scare you

YOO SEUNG HO!!! <3

Hello! I'm back because...... simply I've given up on O's! Will just retake next year yup.
Anyway... you know who's Yoo Seung Ho? The next Kim Bum hahaha. He was SO YOUNG back then... Loved his movies!! Btw he's only 16 but seriously I don't mind dating him hahahahahaha

This was around the time when he starred in The Way Home

And I think this was around the time when he starred in Hearty Paws(one of my fav movie!)

Picture of him with Kim So Eun in Fourth Period Murder Mystery(2009)

Gosh he is so handsome now.

Btw he's casted in a new movie 71 together with Seungri & Kim Bum! I think the director must be a girl haha choose all handsome(and popular) guys!!

Happy Birthday bb!!

I'm sorry I had to blog because.............

IT'S KAI LING'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
It's been quite long huh, friends for 10 years already! Though we're not the bestest friends, but I'm really thankful for you always remembers my birthday and take the effort to bake cookies, muffins, and handcrafts for me! To the girl with a bubbly character, all the best in life!!!! <3>

Foooooooooooooood

Sigh, drastic times call for drastic measures. Really don't wanna repeat my o's... Will probably hardcore study from tomorrow onwards and have like 5-6 hours of sleep. The rest of the time, STUDY. I hope I'll be able to get at least a 20 for R4. If I'm able to, then I must be a genius for I slacked the whole of 2009! (inserts evil laugher X 5) But I got a gut feeling that I'll definitely repeat... But imagine if I'm able to finish my o's this year, I'll be able to do so many things after O's! *bubble bubble bubble* Learning MMA, dance, vocal classes, travelling overseas often, work, dye hair, church, swimming, gym, learning korean(can't wait to be able to sing in korean and not rely on subtitles when watching k dramas!!), hiking, dress up everyday, hair extensions... .... *burst the bubbles* On a side note, went to my aunt's place today! I received my first ever Dior bag from aunt hehe (star jump X 1000) Brought my cousin's daughters out to Ikea and it was kinda funny when all eyes were on us. They probably thought that the twins looks like my daughters hahahaha. Lunch I had 1 bowl of meatballs spaghetti, 2 bowls of laksa, and 2 huge chicken wings! That's like supposed to be 4 servings. Awesome, so satisfying. No one can beat me in eating man. I can still remember the 5 meals challenge with Jasmine a few months back... Cause I thought lunch(wu3 can1) is supposed to be 5 meals(try pronouncing lunch in chinese!) haha power pack. People like me should eat buffet everyday, damn worth it. Okay enough about food. I'm gonna cook kimchi soup now (runs to the kitchen with high speed)

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This is really the last time I'm gonna say this, HIATUS FOR 3 WEEKS!!! :>
But I'll still be twitter active hehehehehe

PS: Time To Love is really addictive keep replaying it!! Geon Il <3

Hate it when I take the effort to take pictures, edit pictures, then they don't even thank you for the pictures. What's more, complaining bout how "sucky" the pictures are. Well, just admit that you look ugly in the picture, but not that the picture is ugly. And I hate it whenever people take my pictures and edit it even more(uglier) Don't have to be bossy and all because like I've said, I am no longer someone that gets bullied easily(like how i was 5 years back) I have zero tolerance for bossy girls/guys, and people with no manners. I show attitude for a reason, I DO NOT show attitude for no reason, alright? You still didn't change one bit. Still as bossy as ever(not talking bout the pictures thingy alr) and knows nothing about empathicalism. In addition, no manners at all. One reason of me not playing a good sport on that day. You, spoiled my appetite seriously.

J's birthday

Okay, finally uploaded the pictures taken on Jasmine's birthday! Not really a lot though, was kinda pissed starting of that day by some girl(or rather girls) Didn't enjoy the party at all, like a huge disappointment..... But still I'm glad J enjoyed! Btw the pictures are really hardcore edited by me because I thought J should(must) look good in those pictures so haha she look amazingly pretty right. I took more than 2 hours to edit them -.- Shan't talk too much will let the pictures do the talking


i think she was trying to hide her shoes haha because she was complaining bout how it does not match with the whole outfit

hehe i did the floral head band for her!

should have edited myself too, now Jasmine stands out in all pictures :<
i think if we give liying an extreme makeover she'll look damn pretty hehe

hehe i'm the second tallest there ok!!!

this girl here grew so much.... 174cm damn she should give me like 5cm to make me 170 :<
hehe floral X floral


hahah two retards

you'll never fail to not see me with food

and i look like i've got buck tooth here

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